Hindi pala tayo para sa isa't-isa

hindi na, ayoko na.
tatapusin ko nalang ang nalalabing ilang buwan.
hahanap nalang ako ng iba.
akala ko, nasa iyo na lahat ng katangian na hanap ko.
mali ako.

mabagal ka, ma-arte, mapili, although good looking talaga at may status!
marami sana tayong magagawang dalawa.
at saka, magastos ka!

pero may mga mas importante akong aasikasuhin.
wala rin lang akong panahon para sa iyo.

goodbye iPhone....

I've promised myself to get an iPhone.  Well, everyone has it, why shouldn't I?  It was supposed to be my reward.  After all, I saved hard (very very very hard) for our flat.  Now we have it! After all, I've given birth to my boy and my daughter is now 5... I felt I needed to be rewarded.

I was crazy...my reward is actually right in front of my eyes!  The three people who kissed me goodnight last night and will do again later :-)

Random KT

Hinila lang?

I went to my OB yesterday for post partum check.  At the onset of my pregnancy, Doctor already spotted a polyp in my cervix.  It was the cause of my week-long bleeding. I was worried.  I had a polyp during my pregnancy with Audrey.  It was removed via a "delicate" operation, general anesthesia.  After giving birth to Audrey, I went through D&C or raspa to remove another polyp.  Doc finished the check and as I sat down for discussion, he pointed to the container with my polyp.  My eyes grew big.  He has removed it just with tweezers.  I did not even feel it.  So bakit tinakot takot pa ako ng mga OB sa Pinas noon? "You have to choose, we do not have to remove your polyp now, but you'll keep on bleeding and you may loose your baby" was what they told me last time.  "It's not a thing to worry, leave it there.  It may shrink during the course of your pregnancy" that's what was told to me this time.

Kasal?

So kasal na nga ba si Robin at Mariel?  Igorot din ako, so I feel bad na deny to the max ang dalawa although they went through the ritual.  Hurt ako to see Mariel's Lola and Lolo cry...bad ka Mariel! Bastos ka Robin!  Why would they let their elders find out about the wedding through text and TV?  Walang ka-gentleman gentleman naman si 'Tol.  Haaay, love is blind nga naman.

Legally Married in 2004, sa Baguio din :-)

EBM

I'm introducing the bottle to Aeden, minsan choks, minsan di choks. At mega sakit ng "twins" ko.  I read that milk supply is more from 1 am to 5 am.  So siguro palitan ko yung expressing schedule ko from day to night.  Hmmm, di ako masyadong mapressure between work and pumping.  I'm still reading office mail from time to time and my boss has already committed to the world na mag audit ako sa Korea by November.  Masaya sana kasi winter.  Magagamit ko na yung mga na-ukay ukay kong winter clothes.  But I'm not going, no no no.  I'm gonna loose my milk supply and surely, sasakit yung tahi ko.  Do I have the right to not do part of my job because of these reasons?

I'm a milking cow - this is liquid gold

Giving Daddy a chance to feed Aeden

Audrey tries too!

F.O.D.

It's been four weeks of F.O.D. - Feeding On Demand for Baby Aeden.
I am frustrated to have not given birth to my kids the natural way, so I really have to make up by giving them breastmilk.  I am blessed to have no problem on this aspect.  Next to giving my kids the best nutrition, I get to loose weight faster.  Aba, I've lost about 13 kilos now *nice right*?  Pero hindi parin ako payatot...I am hoping to loose another 10 kilos, eh 2 na ang anak ko, baka malosyang na ako at tumingin si fafa sa ibang sexy, magnada at bata!  Am I that desperate? No, but of course, it's my responsibility to still look good.  Wait ka lang GM Diet, susubukan kita one day.

Sa laki ng baby ko, we are all worried that my milk won't be enough for him.  He has very varied feeding pattern.  He can go from every 3, 2, 1 hour and at times every 30 minutes.  He feeds at least 5 minutes to at most 15 minutes.  Just looking at his chubby cheeks makes everything worth it.

This week, I need to start introducing the bottle to him.  I will have to practise expressing my milk.  I remember when we were still at the hospital and Aeden was in Special Care, I had to visit him every 3 hours to feed him.  The lactation consultant advised me to pump milk in case he stays longer in the hospital than me.  So I bought pump (ang saya sa hospital, may mga mommy and baby care shops!). 

First attempt lasted for 1 hour with accompanying pain.  The result :  20 milliliters.
Tinataktak ko pa yung breast ko macatch ko lang ang patak ng gatas.  Did Aeden enjoy the milk? Oo, nilagok ng isang beses, after a few seconds, niluwa lang niya...there goes my paghihirap. 

Dahil nahirapan ako sa pagpump, tuloy ang breastfeeding.  I am really proud of myself though, kasi sa dami ng batang nasa special care, ako lang ang matiyagang nagpapasuso doon.  Imagine, may meningitis na nga yung anak mo, di mo pa pasusuhin!  Well, di ko naman masisi mga nanay, baka they are in pain or for whatever reason they have.

Halos walang tulog yung last 2 nights ko sa hospital dahil sa pag feed kay baby.  So nag second attempt ulit ako sa pumping.  Wow, ang saya naming mag asawa kasi in 20 minutes, naka 40 mL ako...naks!  Pero ganun parin, maraming niluluwa si baby.  Cup feeding lang kasi siya as I did not want him to feed from bottle.  He might get confused and prefer bottle.

My goal is to continue to give breastmilk to my son for AT LEAST 6 months.  Meron akong kawork na naging successful sa pag pump ng milk for her daughter for one year.  Amazed ako sa kuwento niya kasi kung ako cup B, siya cup cake lang pero meron siyang tiyagang ganun!  If everything goes well, sana kahit mixed feed na, mapaabot ko ng isang taon.  Who knows, maging 36-26-36 na ang vital statistics ko by then...wahahaha.  I'm joking myself.